B 'N W

... adrift ....

Lost in a land, my very own,
where skys are blessed with a bleeding heart,
gentle shower - sweet rain,
washes tears, purges pain...
a scent of dust, very well known,
brings back memories, random darts,
while in agony with a shooting pain,
rainbow hues in the evening sky,
with a new lease of life, they save the day...
They then give way to a clear night sky,
where the moon rules in haloed ways,
and angels play with shooting stars,
a second at a time the clock ticks away...
scarlet red dawn ushers a new day,
alarm dings, reality stings,
dreamy eyed i wake up,
lost in a world my very own...

Hate Me

A gush of sudden emotion
has flash floods in my head,
a prairie of Capgras delusions
and memories' sanctuary dead...
but every one of your words echoes
as dreams die a screaming death,
but i refuse to share my woes
even as i cry tears of blood...

and all i can ever think is...
if you hate me today... ???
will you hate me tomorrow... ???
is it the only way to see what's good for you ???

All you wanted is a li'l peace
and a kiss that could hardly tell,
It is I who wanted more space
and with beaming pride i swelled...
but you did put it up in my face
when you cast love's last spell
its now an open-n-shut case
and yes, i've been felled...

and all i can ever think is...
if you hate me today... ???
will you hate me tomorrow... ???
is it the only way to see what's good for you ???

Now i burn in compunction
and you remain chary of my word,
i dont ask for compassion,
i thank your suicidal hate...
i'm waging battles with self
'n i shall never return...
for one last time i thank your help
and that smile lingers around every turn...

And all i ask for you is to...

"Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you...

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you..."

Extemporary

Lemontree got me by the scuff of the collar. There's a job to be done. A tag. So let me just get to the fun part extemporaneously.

i am thinking about...
november, a silver jag, a drive, a song, a walk, a hike, sky diving, white water rafting and a lot more with carpe diem-ish enthusiasm.

i said...
smart aleck stuff which has gotten me into a lot of trouble.

i want to...
fly kites and crash them into planes.

i wish...
for the anti-being/article/instance of what i really want.

i hear...
hymns in the dark, whispers in daylight, and the kettle drum roll before all "bada booms".

i wonder...
how people don't get tired of themselves. I've had enough of me; I want to swap souls. I also wonder if all dogs bark in the same language.

i regret...
not being opportunistic.

i am...
an important cog in a system of Gods.

i dance...
as well as anyone can with two left feet and two right hands.

i sing...
to put myself to sleep and to keep my brother awake.

i cry...
crocodile tears to pull off a shenanigan.

i am not always...
sarcastic, curt and snobbish.

i make with my hands...
a couple of shadow puppets, bad cracking noises and sad attempts at sand castles.

i write...
in spurts. With my fingers on the keyboard, i type till i have to think again. Thats when i stop.

i confuse...
people around me. Its fun to keep 'em guessing.

i need…
some favorable synergy happening to get all that i've ever wanted in my life. I need to hear a voice to get me thru' each day. I need to sense a giggle to keep me smiling. I need to work a few things out in a hurry.

I tag.......
Anu Russell
Swathi
M (tread softly upon)
Isis Panthea
Fosix
Second Wind
Truth Fairy
Neha.

Pleeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaase oblige. :)